Just Okay

I’ll be honest I don’t really know what I’m supposed to be doing right now. I’m not thriving. I’m not chasing some big career or achieving something wildly productive. I stopped going to school. I’m not in motion the way people say you’re supposed to be. I’m in the middle. And.. that’s not a bad thing. I’m still trying to figure out who I am. What I care about. Why I’m here. Some days, my mind is so loud it’s hard to do anything at all. And I care. God, I care. I care about people more than I know how to say. I just got scared to show up when it counted. Scared that I’d say the wrong thing. Scared that I’d do more harm than good. So I stayed quiet. And then I hated myself for it. But I’m still here. Still trying. And maybe that’s enough. This post isn’t here to hand you answers. It’s to just say: You can be just okay and still be enough. You don’t have to be extraordinary to be worthy of life. You just have to exist. And maybe that’s the real work sometimes.